After few hours, the undertaker reached. When they reached, my tear run out again. I think that my father will sleep in the coffin forever. The undertakers helped my father to change ATTIRE and MAKE UP. After finished everything, we go to see my father last face. We were cried loudly and shout. Then, we brought my father went to his hometown, Cenderiang, Tapah Ipoh after settled everything at hospital.
Along to his/our hometown, all of us had cried about one and half hours because we are feel very sad and madness. From KL to Ipoh Cenderiang, we have t0 about one and half hours to reach there. I flashback everything about my father, his voice, his smile, his face, his attitude, and everything about him. That's why I cried one and half hours.
When we reached Chederiang, which is my grandpa and grandma house, everyone were shout and cried loudly, include us. At that moment, I don't know what I have done. I only know I punched the floor strongly and cried loudly, others I don't know. After crazy, moody, sadness, depression, all of us, include my other relatives are cried quietly. Everyone keep asking:"Why be like that?" I also don't know how to answer their question, and this question will never have a satisfactory answer. As a son, I slept beside my father's coffin before daybreak. How can I sleep with this condition? I don't know? I just closed my eyes and take a rest. But, I still can heard a lot of my relative are still crying, especially my grandpa, grandma, and my mum............. And I will be the one who are cry with closing my eyes, and heart bleeding.........
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Saturday, July 24, 2010
~LEAVE~
Dark...... Everything is dark in my eyes now..... the sun, the chair, the clothes, the computer, the cloud, anything in front of me.... My lovely, dearest father was pass away....... This cause a huge changes in my life, huge hurt in my heart and my mind as well!
My father was passed away on 20th of July 2010... I will never forget this day. This day, my father, was leaved us. Until now, i also dont know what I am doing now? Sitting? Standing? Eating? Studying? Sleeping? Or what? I not sure what I am doing. I am just like a human without any soul and energetic. I just know I have to sitting my final exam and submit my assignment.
July of 20th...... (Part 1)
This day, I was going to college. Then, my phone is rang, is my sister. I took the phone and listened what my sister trying to said. My sister said my father was fainted, call me go back to home quickly. So, I went back to home directly. After 15 minutes, my sister call me again. This time, my sister said, DAD WAS DIED.......... What? DAD... DIED.... What the fuck..... My hand, my leg, my skin, my cell was lulled and cried. I cried quietly inside the LRT. After reached the station, I was run back to my house. When I reached, I was mad, shout and cry in front of my door. I dont want go back to MARAN, (My father worked place),I dont want go into the house, I dont want to face the fact. After calm down, we were took the clothes, annouced other parents, and went back to MARAN to take and see my father. During the way to MARAN, I cant fall asleep. The sunlight was irradiated on my face and skin. I felt the sunlight is darkness. Eveything in my eyes is dark now. When we reached my father house, at MARAN, my tear was dropping automatically. I dont know what is happening until I saw my father was laid on the bed. (My father friends was did some secure). At the moment, I was mad, crazy, shout, cry, just like want go to suicide. After calm down, I was cried quietly because of the momories was appeared in my mind suddenly. I have a "not-stop crying moment" about 15 minutes. Then, my father is sent to the hospital to recognized the dead. After 30 minutes, we went to the hospital. At the hospital, my father was recognized have a stroke in his brain, the main veins was bursted. We was accompanied my father all the time in the hospital..................
(Continues next part....)
My father was passed away on 20th of July 2010... I will never forget this day. This day, my father, was leaved us. Until now, i also dont know what I am doing now? Sitting? Standing? Eating? Studying? Sleeping? Or what? I not sure what I am doing. I am just like a human without any soul and energetic. I just know I have to sitting my final exam and submit my assignment.
July of 20th...... (Part 1)
This day, I was going to college. Then, my phone is rang, is my sister. I took the phone and listened what my sister trying to said. My sister said my father was fainted, call me go back to home quickly. So, I went back to home directly. After 15 minutes, my sister call me again. This time, my sister said, DAD WAS DIED.......... What? DAD... DIED.... What the fuck..... My hand, my leg, my skin, my cell was lulled and cried. I cried quietly inside the LRT. After reached the station, I was run back to my house. When I reached, I was mad, shout and cry in front of my door. I dont want go back to MARAN, (My father worked place),I dont want go into the house, I dont want to face the fact. After calm down, we were took the clothes, annouced other parents, and went back to MARAN to take and see my father. During the way to MARAN, I cant fall asleep. The sunlight was irradiated on my face and skin. I felt the sunlight is darkness. Eveything in my eyes is dark now. When we reached my father house, at MARAN, my tear was dropping automatically. I dont know what is happening until I saw my father was laid on the bed. (My father friends was did some secure). At the moment, I was mad, crazy, shout, cry, just like want go to suicide. After calm down, I was cried quietly because of the momories was appeared in my mind suddenly. I have a "not-stop crying moment" about 15 minutes. Then, my father is sent to the hospital to recognized the dead. After 30 minutes, we went to the hospital. At the hospital, my father was recognized have a stroke in his brain, the main veins was bursted. We was accompanied my father all the time in the hospital..................
(Continues next part....)
Monday, July 12, 2010
~Tired~
Feel so tired for everything on me now, assignment, tests, presentation, do revisions, homework and everything. I felt so tired, honestly. It was very very tired. Every night when I sleep, I can't fall asleep. Everything will come out from my brain when my eyes is closed. Numbers, formulas, words, concept, everything will just run out to my mind, it cause me can't fall asleep.
Yesterday night, my sisters watched the final FIFA World Cup. My parlor's lights is reflected to my face through my bedroom. The light make me can't asleep. SAD.... Then, how about the World Cup result, like a shit. I don't know. I am a guy who really not interested in football. I mean football is mean nothing to me. Mean NOTHING. NOTHING. Sorry I have to said that. I really don't like football. I think football is very boring to me. (Sorry for football fans.) >u<
Recently, THOSE feeling is appeared again. THOSE FEELING, make me so suffering. I want throw them away, but I can't even I have tried my best best best. Who can tell me, what I suppose to do? What I can do? Who can tell me? WHO~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Yesterday night, my sisters watched the final FIFA World Cup. My parlor's lights is reflected to my face through my bedroom. The light make me can't asleep. SAD.... Then, how about the World Cup result, like a shit. I don't know. I am a guy who really not interested in football. I mean football is mean nothing to me. Mean NOTHING. NOTHING. Sorry I have to said that. I really don't like football. I think football is very boring to me. (Sorry for football fans.) >u<
Recently, THOSE feeling is appeared again. THOSE FEELING, make me so suffering. I want throw them away, but I can't even I have tried my best best best. Who can tell me, what I suppose to do? What I can do? Who can tell me? WHO~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Saturday, July 3, 2010
=Stress FULL=
Aiyo, recently I am so busy, like before today, I just finished my algebra and trigonometry (add. math) mid-term. Next Monday I have to submit my assignment. (I have done already). Next Wednesday I have my general physic mid-term. The week after this week I will have my English Foundation Presentation. After three week, my English Final Exam is coming. R.I.P. xnx
Ok! Come to August. The whole month is the final exam month. (If I am no getting wrong.) Died fast lah. Have to do more and more and more revision. I don't know why I am so stressful. My friends said to me :"Hei, dude, Only foundation leh. Why make yourself so stressful?" I also don't know why? Maybe I am demanded more. I want to score my whole subject in this semester at the marks that I have set before. I have to achieve the marks that I have set I have to, I must to that. Am I make myself too stress? I think so. My mum always said, I am made myself so stress. But, I have to thank to my mum and my family because always support me and make me relax and make me stress less. Thank, FAMILY. Whatever, I demanded because I want be the best but not among the best lah. I always compare myself to myself. I never ever and ever compare me with other guy. YA. It is me.....
Ok! Come to August. The whole month is the final exam month. (If I am no getting wrong.) Died fast lah. Have to do more and more and more revision. I don't know why I am so stressful. My friends said to me :"Hei, dude, Only foundation leh. Why make yourself so stressful?" I also don't know why? Maybe I am demanded more. I want to score my whole subject in this semester at the marks that I have set before. I have to achieve the marks that I have set I have to, I must to that. Am I make myself too stress? I think so. My mum always said, I am made myself so stress. But, I have to thank to my mum and my family because always support me and make me relax and make me stress less. Thank, FAMILY. Whatever, I demanded because I want be the best but not among the best lah. I always compare myself to myself. I never ever and ever compare me with other guy. YA. It is me.....
Why???
I felt so curios! Why? Because my friends and my family said I am a crazy and addictive guy. Crazy to who? Addictive to who? Lam Fung. OMG~~~~ I crazy to him and addictive to him because I admire him, adore him, and support him. What's wrong? Admire people also is a wrong thing lar... If like that then I am speechless. =.=lll
My friends always said:" You are so GAY!!" GAY??? What's the point? Because I admire a MALE ARTIST. How gay is it? I think I am not wrong wad. Admire a people didn't have sexual differences. Ok!! If like that I also gay, then the whole world which are admired Jay Chou also GAY lah.... Aiyoyoy...... This is so funny lah.... So, Please, Dun say I am a gay lah...ok.... You can say me crazy, fun, siao, abnormal, addictive, insane, and whatever you want to call, but please don't call me GAY arh.. I am normal........ =,=llllllllllll WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH......
New Announcement
Hei, I have a new announcement here..... I will upload my blog every Saturday night. Hehe. I want be active in blogger. Whoooo.... So, I will upload a few new post now.... Just wait me....
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Hehe
Hehe, guys....Long time no see..hhah...I also long time no upload my blog.... Hv a announcement here,for the next and the next next blogs i will use english to write my beloved blog (mean that i will use english in future, i mean from now lah..) ahahahah... i hv been forced by the university life. I hv no choice...haha.. If I hv make many grammartical mistak, plz forgive me....
First the fall, I hv to tell u all, university life is not an easy life as secondary school......(Of course lah) !All are independent... Cool man.... I remembered that when Im in orientation in 1st day, damn man... What the guys talking about??? I mean the guy,the principal gave some speech to us.... Men, the words that he used, my god..... I really dun understand not at all, bt some...!!! HAhahaha....
Second, I hv my timetable through the UCSI personal website.... Damn, again! The timetable I think I oledi change about 10 time ++!! Why? Bcoz the FU*K timetable were very very flexible.. Today is like that.. 2moro will become other things....... SHIT.... But, now the time oledi fixed... ahhahaha.... USCI I'll forgive you..hahahaha......
Third, is about the subject that I took... Haiz... This foundation year I hv 3 semester.... I took 5 sub. in this semester, which are the most hated one, english foundation, general physic, algebra and trigonometry (actual it is add math), computing essentials and accounting practice.... What is the relationship btwn engineering and account..??? NONSENSE.... Bt, whatever I said, whatever I really dun want to learn this sub. The result is I hv to learn......
Last but not least, I hv my assingment! This assignment is about the social problem such as child abuse and so on..... The bad new is, I hv to write about 2,000 words.... FU*K... The good new is it is a group assignment....... Ho...... LUCKY.... ahhahaahah......... I think I stop here...If I continuous to write, I will wrong and make mistake more... See ya... Bye.....
First the fall, I hv to tell u all, university life is not an easy life as secondary school......(Of course lah) !All are independent... Cool man.... I remembered that when Im in orientation in 1st day, damn man... What the guys talking about??? I mean the guy,the principal gave some speech to us.... Men, the words that he used, my god..... I really dun understand not at all, bt some...!!! HAhahaha....
Second, I hv my timetable through the UCSI personal website.... Damn, again! The timetable I think I oledi change about 10 time ++!! Why? Bcoz the FU*K timetable were very very flexible.. Today is like that.. 2moro will become other things....... SHIT.... But, now the time oledi fixed... ahhahaha.... USCI I'll forgive you..hahahaha......
Third, is about the subject that I took... Haiz... This foundation year I hv 3 semester.... I took 5 sub. in this semester, which are the most hated one, english foundation, general physic, algebra and trigonometry (actual it is add math), computing essentials and accounting practice.... What is the relationship btwn engineering and account..??? NONSENSE.... Bt, whatever I said, whatever I really dun want to learn this sub. The result is I hv to learn......
Last but not least, I hv my assingment! This assignment is about the social problem such as child abuse and so on..... The bad new is, I hv to write about 2,000 words.... FU*K... The good new is it is a group assignment....... Ho...... LUCKY.... ahhahaahah......... I think I stop here...If I continuous to write, I will wrong and make mistake more... See ya... Bye.....
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