~LEAVE~

Dark...... Everything is dark in my eyes now..... the sun, the chair, the clothes, the computer, the cloud, anything in front of me.... My lovely, dearest father was pass away....... This cause a huge changes in my life, huge hurt in my heart and my mind as well!

My father was passed away on 20th of July 2010... I will never forget this day. This day, my father, was leaved us. Until now, i also dont know what I am doing now? Sitting? Standing? Eating? Studying? Sleeping? Or what? I not sure what I am doing. I am just like a human without any soul and energetic. I just know I have to sitting my final exam and submit my assignment.

July of 20th...... (Part 1)
This day, I was going to college. Then, my phone is rang, is my sister. I took the phone and listened what my sister trying to said. My sister said my father was fainted, call me go back to home quickly. So, I went back to home directly. After 15 minutes, my sister call me again. This time, my sister said, DAD WAS DIED.......... What? DAD... DIED.... What the fuck..... My hand, my leg, my skin, my cell was lulled and cried. I cried quietly inside the LRT. After reached the station, I was run back to my house. When I reached, I was mad, shout and cry in front of my door. I dont want go back to MARAN, (My father worked place),I dont want go into the house, I dont want to face the fact. After calm down, we were took the clothes, annouced other parents, and went back to MARAN to take and see my father. During the way to MARAN, I cant fall asleep. The sunlight was irradiated on my face and skin. I felt the sunlight is darkness. Eveything in my eyes is dark now. When we reached my father house, at MARAN, my tear was dropping automatically. I dont know what is happening until I saw my father was laid on the bed. (My father friends was did some secure). At the moment, I was mad, crazy, shout, cry, just like want go to suicide. After calm down, I was cried quietly because of the momories was appeared in my mind suddenly. I have a "not-stop crying moment" about 15 minutes. Then, my father is sent to the hospital to recognized the dead. After 30 minutes, we went to the hospital. At the hospital, my father was recognized have a stroke in his brain, the main veins was bursted. We was accompanied my father all the time in the hospital..................
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